Scenario 1 -
I was worrying about the Saturday night as it was the agricultural show party. Although it was miles away and down in the valley, I was tricking myself into thinking maybe they'd all hear about me up in the hills, by myself, and in a drunken stupor try and find me. So when it came to the actual evening I just 'shut down'. Subconsciously I closed my mind to fear in order to protect myself from suffering. My headache came from the stress of it all.
Scenario 2 -
The realisation I had the other night really has changed my perception of fear at a deeper level. The fact I found it challenging to meditate was because I ate too many krisprolls with Boursin cheese on them. My headache came from knitting too long in the same position.
Scenario 3 -
None of the above. I wasn't scared because there was nothing to be scared of.
"Unskilfull mental states are preceded by mind, led by mind and made up of mind. If one speaks or acts with an impure mind suffering follows him even as the cart-wheel follows the hoof of the ox.
Skillful mental states are preceded by mind, led by mind and made up of mind. If one speaks or acts with a pure mind happiness follows her like her shadow."
First verses of the Dhammapada
OooooHhhhhh!!!! Stretching is sooOOooo good! Keeping the body feeling comfortable is so important for practice. duh!
There are five orders of conditionality (niyamas)
There is no way of knowing for sure which conditions brought about which effects.
"If one gets a fever, it may be a chill caused by a sudden change in temperature; or one may have caught a viral infection; or perhaps one has succumbed to illness as a result of some kind of mental strain; or it may even have been caused by an unskilfull action commited in the past; or it may even be the effect on one's transcendental insight. Thus the same end result may have been brought about by something physical, something biological, something psychological, something karmic or something transcendental - or a combination of two or more of these".
What is the Dharma, Sangharakshita pg164
Too many biscuits hen's belly arises
not many biscuits hen's belly does not arise.
Just been knitting my new hat and having lots of rambling thoughts. Well they led me to a memory about when I kept having insights about fractals. For years I was obsessed with the fact that all existence was a fractal or perhaps even a series of fractals. If you can picture infinite fractals all joined together, that's kind of what I imagined and how I imagine Indras Jeweled net. All identical and interconnected but totally unique.
I remember being so taken with this idea I wrote my friend a letter outlining my experiences and thoughts! I also remember trying to learn about fractals as the scientific world explained them. I even started to read the book Chaos, unfortunately my tiny mind got bored.