Got an insight into the non-linear nature of existence in this mornings sit. How it's all connected and why it is important I practice . The Bodhisattva ideal is the way.
Which is nice.
As I said the other day, anger, hatred, attachments... exactly what am I directing them to? A bundle of atoms and expressions of the effects of causes that are so infinite as to be indefinable. There's not one bit that can be grasped on to in order to direct the anger, hatred, fear, attachments. So the feelings dissipate.
Personally I think this mornings sit was so productive because I was wearing my horny head bag.
Funny faces are great! I took a couple of photos last night of me wearing my new hat. As today is an insightful day, while I was looking at the photos I saw the four stages of hen... I haven't laughed so much for ages! I nearly wet myself, tears, actual tears running down my face. Love it!
I am here in dependance upon 'others'. Well, 'others' is not a satisfactory term. Any kindness shown to me, benefits all beings. Any kindness I show, benefits all beings.
The causes that led to me being sat on this seat are infinite. We are all connected. Everything is connected. All things really do arise in dependance of a cause.
I suppose in order to carry that wisdom with me throughout everyday life I will need to practice as much as I can so it becomes habitual.
I read a bit more of 'What is the Dharma' by Sangharakshita it is so well written. Very readable and friendly. I think I am beginning to understand a little about Buddhism. With the help of that book, my retreat experiences and my nature. I think I am finally getting it.
It is really quite important that I join a Sangha and get stuck in.
I saw a stoat today. I think it was a stoat. Beautiful, quite slinky and small. I startled him. There is a beautiful cow asleep on a grassy mound. Curled up like a dog, her head resting on the ground, fast asleep in the sunny rain.
It's not right how much I love Boursin.